A mixed bag. No new disease, but no running. He wants me only to walk. I called him a few choice names and immediately began readjusting my self expectations. OK, I will walk and not run. Maybe it's a good thing. Maybe it will teach me to simply enjoy rather than constantly trying to reach another goal.
I've participated in one race since the appointment. I averaged about 14 minutes per mile. I've walked daily since then, listening to my favorite podcasts and music. I find myself noticing the beauty on my usual route at our home that seems to have been unnoticed while running.
I have always had a strange mixture of attraction to a meditative life but a goal directed drive. I will chose to pay attention to my circumstances and simply be with this.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
That must be a relief that there is no disease. I like your attitude about just enjoying what you are doing. You had asked about my practice, mostly I work in community mental health settings but I also have a private practice. I mostly do therapy in the private practice, which I find more enjoyable. Agencies don't want to pay me to do therapy.
ReplyDelete